I'm upset. I'm upset that you don't want the same things I do. I'm upset that you don't think about me constantly, because lord knows i think about you. I'm mad at you. You just drag me along making me think everything will be alright. You lied. It's not alright. I'm hurt. My heart doesn't work right. It hurts when you walk all over it like you do. I'm stupid enough to let you keep doing it though. I'm sad. I would like to cry, but then that would be showing you I'm weak. Knowing you, you'd take advantage of that. Like you take advantage of me. Of my vulnerability. I'd like for nothing more than to fall asleep without you on my mind. I'd love to not care if you don't talk to me for a day, or if you happened to fall off the face of the earth. That'd be okay with me. No of course not. I hate this. I hate it so much. Do you not have a heart? AHH! Just rip my fucking heart out..

not like it would be any different than it is now anyways...