Today was not an okay day. I feel empty and lost. Pretty much.
Me & Travis are fighting. I don't know whats going on with him, but it doesn't feel the same & honestley, I don't want to remember him anymore. I don't have the strength. He helped me a lot when it came to Febreeze. He prevented me from talking to him, or hanging out with him. He made me feel better when all I wanted to do was cry myself to sleep...but now it's all fading quickly.
So I talked to Febreeze last night & then Tegan started texting me...talk about random...because we haven't talked for a long long long long time. He's my best friend...He's like the brother I never had. He's pretty much amazing. He asked me what I was doing, and I said talking to Matt & Travis, and he flipped. He's like, I leave you & you go back to him?! I laughed, because he was all serious. and he gave me the '20 good reasons Becca should never talk to Matt' again. and so i stopped texting Matt. :) I guess I'm realizing that boys aren't worth it anymore. i don't even want a boyfriend. Dalton's okay, but personally I don't think we're all that serious...
and Travis? yeah, well, I'll have to get back to you on that.