Love changes all the time. Sometimes it takes a turn for the worst, otherwise it gets better. I don't know which way I'm being led to be completely honest with you. I'm moving on from Febreeze, granted yeah I miss him, but he was a big part of my life no matter how stupid I was around him, and how it was all a joke to him. It happened & it hurt. But most importantly it happened. All I can do is just walk out of that burning building & let it fall.
I won't say I love Justin under any means. Because I don't . But I really like him, and I think maybe someday I could love him.
Love is such a complicated term. So many people think they know what it means but I don't think anyone does. Why do you have to question who you love, when for some people it's so easy to just say i love you. But others, you physically can't say it even if you think you feel it emotionally. I think love is a joke honestly. I think the only people you should ever love is someone you know will always be a part of your life. Family & your best friends. I don't think I'll ever love a boy. Because so many times they leave. You don't know. I don't want to take the risk either. I can say that I loved Dalton, and Travis...but how can love ever be past tense. Isn't love supposed to be forever...?
I miss Dalton, and I don't know why. It's not like we have so many memories...I have more memories with Justin who I've known for a couple weeks compared to the guy who I dated for almost 10 months.
SO all in all. . . I don't feel like my heart is ready to love anyone. I won't say it because the last person I can really remember loving is my grandma...and I don't want to feel like I'm giving that love to anyone else.
I won't say I love Justin under any means. Because I don't . But I really like him, and I think maybe someday I could love him.
Love is such a complicated term. So many people think they know what it means but I don't think anyone does. Why do you have to question who you love, when for some people it's so easy to just say i love you. But others, you physically can't say it even if you think you feel it emotionally. I think love is a joke honestly. I think the only people you should ever love is someone you know will always be a part of your life. Family & your best friends. I don't think I'll ever love a boy. Because so many times they leave. You don't know. I don't want to take the risk either. I can say that I loved Dalton, and Travis...but how can love ever be past tense. Isn't love supposed to be forever...?
I miss Dalton, and I don't know why. It's not like we have so many memories...I have more memories with Justin who I've known for a couple weeks compared to the guy who I dated for almost 10 months.
SO all in all. . . I don't feel like my heart is ready to love anyone. I won't say it because the last person I can really remember loving is my grandma...and I don't want to feel like I'm giving that love to anyone else.
love is just too complicated to be played around with. it causes more pain than happiness.
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